I feel the urge to watch disney movies :-/

But alas, I'm missing like half of mine :-(
So hopefully someone might let me borrow one?

Really, really wanna watch:

1. Alladin - Return of Jafar
2. Little Mermaid 2
3. Mulan 1 + 2
4. Emperor's New Groove
5. Peter Pan 2 - Return to Neverland
6. Lilo & Stich 1 + 3

Anyone who lets me borrow these will be forever loved :-P

Gimme!

<3

Ouch!

I really need a gym membership...

Decided to do some exercise last night - didn't go to well to be honest.
Bought this weird little £30 exercising tool from Tesco...

It ought to have a warning sign stuck on it -
"Beware: Keep away from young children, and stupid ones too"

Needless to say, I ended up hurting myself lol =P

It was this weird stretchy thing that you roll on the floor,
but instead of doing what it was meant to, and just sliding
itself backwards - it decided to shoot itself backwards, so
I fell forward, it came backwards and it met my face with
a fair amount if force; and I know have a cut/bruise on my
chin, which I very much hope isn't going to turn into a scar

So, yeah... have decided to never excercise in the "safety"
of my own house again. It's either the gym or nowhere at all.


Wonder how much the swimming pool/gym membership costs?

Any ideas people?

Given up on giving up

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Have given up giving up...

Lol.

Have decided not to give on my EP, I'm just changing my focus.
Gonna work on my lyrics more, and less so on the recordings themselves.

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Have got tonnes of homework to do...
But to be honest if homework was all I did I'd die.

So I'm keeping my energies all over the place.

Anyway, here is what was produced from my last session...
With a little help from my friends ;)

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Exposure
Prelude
Bet your sweet ass, I'm gonna be famous - yeah

(ready, set, go)
I'm getting ready now
(lettin' you know)
I'm gonna tell ya how

Verse 1
I'm writing songs, all day/night long - a simple fact
I'm waiting for a chart-topper for my comeback

I'm just so sick of making sweet music
On my own, cause then I just lose it
Wanna colaberate
Yeah that's the way to do it

Walking down the carpet, camera's flashing
Interviewers all try'n to cash in
On an album that's been smashin'
Tellin' them music my passion

Bridge
Peek-a-boo, I see you
Ent'ring charts 'bove number two
I'm workin on, my master plan
C'mon catch me if you can

Chorus
I'm needing some exposure
All round the world and over
I want the world, down on their knees
Not try'n to screw me over

Want some exposure
Need some exposure
Don't wanna get naked down the street
But I'm wantin' some exposure

Post-chorus
Buy my album please
(ha ha ha-a-ah)
A few more sales are all I need
(ha ha ha-a-ah

Verse 2
I need it more than ever now
And It's getting harder to get
I'm gonna need some publicity
Make it harder for them to forget

Settling down now, getting cosy
Modelling and making poses
Camera's flashing - keep in focus
So the magazine cover aint bogus

Bridge

Chorus

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Pure Satisfaction
Prelude
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah *2

Verse 1
Have you been waitin for me as you sit there all alone
Waiting for a ruler, sitting there on your throne
Well I'm new and improved, and saying "happy to be here"
I'm a legend, they know all about me

Bridge 1
'cause they're like the paparazzi, and I'm a celebrity
I'm not being arrogant, but they all wanna piece of me
'cause they're like the paparazzi, and I'm a celebrity
Better get me on my good side, take you're pick (left or right)

Chorus
Strike a pose *3 (Pure-Sat-Is)
Strike a pose *3 (Fac-Sheei-On)

Verse 2
Gonna give you what you want, so you better go prepare
When I'm served up on a plate there will be no need to share
Boy it's not that unusual, we've all got freaky tendencies
I'm a legend, cat'ring to your special needs

Bridge 2
'cause you're like a civilian, and I am you're superhere-a
I'm not being arrogant, but you're likin' what you here-a
'cause you're like a civilian, and I am you're superhere-a
Gimme a quick kiss on the cheek, take you're pick (left or right)

Chorus *2

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You're a clown (I'm the ringmaster)
Verse 1
It's a party
And you've just been invited
Heatin' up now
Bet you're gettin' all excited

It's time to get all dressed up
Hide behind all of the best stuff
Join in the parade
The big charade, baby

Baby you
Have been all down in your luck
Now it's time
A good excuse to run all amok

People say that I'm a sucker
But they're all just stupid f*kers
I know you
Baby you - baby

Bridge
It's the circus
You're the clown
Turn the smiles
All into frowns

Ooh, ooh, ooh *2

Boy you're so pathetic
I can deal with you, don't sweat it - baby

Chorus
You wanna get with me
But I've got much better taste than that
You wana get with me
But you aint never gonna hit that

Post-chorus
Think you're a playa'
And I'm you're flavour
You aint my saviour
You're such a clown

Chorus

Post-chorus

Verse 2
A superstar?
Boy, somebody's been misleadin'
Casanova?
In your mind I'm barely breathin'

Maybe you've had one too many
Too think that I'd be your baby
Outta luck
Stupid drunk - baby

Baby you're
A very obsessive companion
Too bad for you
Cause you will never be my champion

Say it any way you wanted
Do what you do, work it flaunt it
Photographs
To make me laugh - baby

Bridge
It's the circus
You're the clown
Turn the smiles
All into frowns

Ooh, ooh, ooh *2

Boy you're so pathetic
I can deal with you, don't sweat it - baby

Chorus
You wanna get with me
But I've got much better taste than that
You wanna get with me
But you aint never gonna hit that

Post-chorus 2
You beg to date me
You'll never make me
You're gonna hate me
You're such a clown

Chorus

Post-chorus 2

Aftermath
Maybe we could work out, if you weren't such a jerk?
But I'll guess we'll never find out
Cause I'm afraid, that you are -

Ooh, ooh, ohh

Bridge
It's the circus
You're the clown
Turn the smiles
All into frowns

Ooh, ooh, ooh *2

Boy you're so pathetic
I can deal with you, don't sweat it - baby

Chorus
You wanna get with me
But I've got much better taste than that
You wanna get with me
But you aint never gonna hit that

Post-chorus 2
I'm a firecracker
I'm such a b*stard
I'm the ringmaster
And you're a clown

Chorus

Post-chorus 2

Aftermath

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You can't seriously believe it?
Verse 1
I've been sexually aware since I first hit fifteen
Don't mean I've been actin' on it - if you know what I mean
Still they all go round saying things bout public toilets down the street
I mean, what the hell? You can't seriously believe it?

Verse 2
I'm just one of those people, that drama always seems to follow
Yeah I know I'm taking classes but I don't see how I'm hollow
What with all the condradictions out there, how can you -
Seriously believe it? You can't seriously believe it?

Chorus
They say I've done it this way and that
You can't seriously believe it?
One day I'm anorexic then too fat
You can't seriously believe it?

They're calling me a spastic then a nerd
You can't seriously believe it?
Spreadin so many lies, I bet you've all heard
You can't seriously believe it?

Verse 3
Getting called up by people all sayin' I'm a fag
But I'm not the one who's smokin', that one would be my dad
And that could be taken the wrong way - yeah that'd be bad
But you won't seriously believe it, you can't seriously believe it.

Verse 4
It's hardly the first the time, I've been called a poof before
So why do you think, it's gonna hurt me to the core?
I mean at least say somethin' offensive, yeah call me a whore
If you seriously believe it - bet you seriously believe it.

Chorus

Bridge
They're saying I'm just a virgin
They saying that I'm a slut
I'll admit that I am vergin'
But I aint saying on what

They all pointin' and starin
Cause they say I'm too thin
But If I was really caring
I'd have already give in

Verse 5
Yeah they're all calling me a dork, though I'm failing my tests
Then they're all pointing out that I am far from the best
Well duh of course I'm not, I've already confessed
But you won't seriously believe it, you can't seriously believe it.

Chorus

You can't seriously believe it?
I bet you seriosuly believe it...

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So, yeah... that was that then.

I would like to thank the 2 people I collaborated with...
But they'd rather I didn't =P

Still, don't blame me for all the profanities and crazy words
After all they're only 33.33333333333333334% my fault...

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The end is nigh

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Baby I've been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before i knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
But love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah

Most beautiful song ever...

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Kinda sucks to be honest :-/
So much school work going on I've had to admit it...

My project is going nowhere.


So I am officially burying "behind the scenes"
Might resurrect her some day, but for now she's officially dead.

Some people might know what I'm talking bout...
And then there'll be some who probably won't...

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Either way, here's a little excerpt.

Run that by me
Verse 1
You gave me a kiss on the back of the neck
And I gave you a kiss back on the lips
You left me thinking "what the heck?"
But I still put my hands on your hips
On my mobile you told me that you loved me
And stupid me replied with "why?"
Now stupid me feels quite dumbfounded
Wishing I could have just one more try

Bridge
If I'm gonna push my surf up
To meet that tidal wave
If I'm gonna find a way to climb up
And make a great escape
And if I'm gonna get the water
To soak all of your flowers
I'm gonna need a few more minutes
Or maybe a couple of hours

Chorus
Run that by me one more time? What was it you said again?
Run that by me one more time? What did I say back again?
Run that by me one more time? Cause back then I didn't know how
Run that by me one more time? Because I'm strong enough now

Verse 2
I didn't say I didn't cause I really didn't
Was cause I didn't know what else to say
You just said what you said when you said it
And I was so scared I needed to escape
The next day you go about denying
You 'pologize for saying how you felt
Then next thing I know again you're crying
Cause of the cards you've gone and dealt

Bridge

Chorus

Aftermath You got crushed, well never mind *2
You don't wanna know how I really fee
l You don't want an answer that's really real

Chorus

Waste of time
Verse 1
What did I do
To be treated so badly
By you
Is said something I said
Tell the truth
Cause I'm sick of the lies
And abuse
I've been wasting my time

Bridge
You got yours baby
And now it's the end
So don't go blaming me
You've got no defence
I didn't deserve
To be treated like that
Got strength in reserve, now
And my friends got my back

Chorus
So don't you go
Saying I'm wrong
Cause that would just be a big waste of your time
There's no point
In holding on
You and me both know that'd be a waste of our time

Verse 2
All in the past
So I bet you'll drag it on
Make it last
Cause it went away for you
Far too fast
Not soon enough for me
The spell you cast
Is over now I've been set free

Bridge
You got yours baby
And now it's the end
So don't go blaming me
You've got no defence
I didn't deserve
To be treated like that
Got strength in reserve, now
And my friends got my back

Chorus
So don't you go
Saying I'm wrong
Cause that would just be a big waste of your time
There's no point
In holding on
You and me both know that'd be a waste of our time

Bridge 2
All in all
I think I'm glad
When all things're are said and done
Set up for a fall
Guess it's kinda sad
Cause you just weren't the one

Chorus
So don't you go
Saying I'm wrong
Cause that would just be a big waste of your time
There's no point
In holding on
You and me both know that'd be a waste of our time


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The Christmas list has arrived!

I promised you guys a list and here it is ;-)

Cupcakes and Fruit!

Kawaii Purple Bunny!

OMG Pikachu!!!

OMG Another Pikachu!!!

Random Shizz (Stay away from the Chouchou)

Bags, Wallets & Notebooks!

Absolutely F*king Amazing XD

20 Japanese Gestures (Book)

F*king LOVE These Jeans!

Niko Niko Punch 3 - Face Bento Decoration (Near Bottom)

I Love Momiji Dolls!

Absolutely Anything From This Site!!!

Utada Hikaru - Heart Station

The Saturdays - Chasing Lights

Gackt - Diabolos

Final Fantasy 4 DS

Yokai Attack Japanese Monster Survial G (Book)

Chirstmas list

Getting into the christmas spirit methinks
With a red and green colour scheme. Very Christmasy ;-)

So, in the theme of Christmas...

I'm gonna do a blog on my christmas list!!!

x

Not doing it today, though... but look forward to it :-P

Reason

Somewhere before 2007

"2007"

It's endless.
It's restless.
It's drawn into the light.
It's colours,
are merging.
It's not black or white.

Love is all, and all is none
It's the same for everyone.
Everyone's meant for someone.
A precious cycle.

I'm stalling.
I'm falling.
But like liquid, I run.
I'm yearning.
I'm burning.
Drawn towards, the sun.

It feels like my love once was cursed
But now it's back I feel much worse.
I'm not able to put myself first.
Maybe I'm broken?

I feel you,
Inside me,
Not long till I am lost
I'm losing
It quietly
Not sure at, what cost

My body once was virgin white
Now I've been stained as red as wine.
In the end love won the fight.
Yet, I regret it.

Should I go back to where I came?
Should I put out my burning flame?
I wish I was a child once again...
Somewhere before 2007.

Think before you speak

Think before you speak

Lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) teens experience homophobic remarks and harassment throughout the school day, creating an atmosphere where they feel disrespected, unwanted and unsafe. Homophobic remarks such as “that’s so gay” are the most commonly heard; these slurs are often unintentional and a common part of teens’ vernacular. Most do not recognize the consequences, but the casual use of this language often carries over into more overt harassment.

This campaign aims to raise awareness about the prevalence and consequences of anti-LGBT bias and behavior in America’s schools. Ultimately, the goal is to reduce and prevent the use of homophobic language in an effort to create a more positive environment for LGBT teens. The campaign also aims to reach adults, including school personnel and parents; their support of this message is crucial to the success of efforts to change behavior.

Seriously, say something original;

• That's so yesterday
• That's so supercalifragilisticexpialidocious
• That's so raunchy!
• That's so phat
• That's so fetch
• That's so awk-weird
• That's so stupendiliferous
• That's so uber stupid
• That's so rainbowlicious
• That's so discombobulated
• That's so pathetically pretentious
• That's so juxtaposed
• That's so full of sunshine goodness
• That's so whiggity-whack

The rate at which students use and hear negative language about lesbian, gay, bisexual or transgender (LGBT) people is huge. Over half of all students report hearing homophobic remarks often at school.

The common use of anti-LGBT language is directly related to an even bigger problem – the bullying and harassment of LGBT students.

9 out of 10 LGBT students report being harassed at school in the last year. Over one-third of LGBT students have been physically assaulted at school because of their sexual orientation or gender identity/expression.

Such frequent harassment results in LGBT students being more likely than others to:

• Feel unsafe
• Miss school
• Receive lower grades
• Not attend college

Creating a safe environment for all students - LGBT and straight alike - begins with one simple act: thinking before you speak.

A lot of anti-LGBT language is said carelessly, and isn’t intended as negative or hurtful. Understand what you’re saying, and think about the potential consequences of the words you choose.

And, just for your further education...

gay - adjective, -er, -est, noun, adverb, -adjective

1. having or showing a merry, lively mood : gay spirits; gay music.
2. bright ot showy: gay colours; gay ornaments
3. given to or abounding in social or other pleasures: a gay social season
4. licentious; dissipated; wanton: the baron is a gay old rogue with an eye for the ladies
   

http://www.thinkb4youspeak.com/

That's soooo "girl wearing a skirt as a top"

Rantage

Whoot! New issue of NEO magazine's in!
And, naturally, I used my lunch money to buy it XD

Definetly loving their feature on Japanese recipes.
It helps support my obsession. =P

...thinking of subscribing to NEO, but I'm not sure.
It'd be cheaper in the long run, but at the same time I'd never be able to skip it
Which I sometimes do, when I don't have money to waste...

I hate being poor :-(

Did get a job application... but like everything else in my life I lost it.

Damn room's like the Bermuda-fucking-triangle...

It's possible it needs a bit of a tidy.
It's also very possible that it won't get it.

Chances are, my mother's gonna kill me when she sees how bad it is.
But, it's not like I'm ever in my bedroom these days anyway...

:-/

Grandmother's in hospital right now.

M.W's being really nice, unsuprisingly, but I just feel really bad about it.
I think he just feels sorry for me, it's almost annoying how nice he's being.
I just wish he's be petty, or spoilt, or angry or something...

Something to show that he's human, and that the past means something.
Cause it's like he can barely tell the difference...

And I mean, I'm glad it went the way it did, cause it's easy for me.
And now I can move on and not have to feel guilty, or upset at another failure,
but the way he's acting it's like it wasn't a failure because it wasn't anything.

But I mean, In the end it's all his fault.
Even though, he did it because he knew I was going to.
And even if it was self-defence, he doesn't have the right to complain.

Does he?

This blog ended up in a different place than it started out in...

Ugh, stop being a prat Michael.

I know you're reading this.

Hence the rantage...

Venting, but not unleashing

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Have to admit, my thoughts are really unfocused right now...
So many things going on, and off...

So I'm going to do blogs on each of my seperate anxieties and thoughts.
In a vague sense though... I wanna vent but I don't wanna unleash lol.

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M.W

Why do all good things come to an end?
Flames turn to dust?
Lovers turn to friends?

I think we both know that it's better off that way...

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There comes a time when all hope dies
A time when realism's realized
A time when you give up on unrealistic dreams
And learn to accept impossibilities

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Heaven's gates may be opening sooner than you think

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A mane of stubborn fire
A heart of dark desire

Feelings old and new
Waiting for you to make the next move...

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Not sure whether to be scared, worried or just confused
I guess we'll just have to wait and see...

Maybe everything will turn out right?

x

In this new world, material goods won't matter...

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Venus collides with Mars, romance written in the stars...

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God, I need to get some perspective...
My thoughts are all over the place :P

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Gackt - Vanilla

You're an honest moralist
You trace me with your pretty finger
I'm a pure terrorist
Your thoughts are rising like a revolution

A specialist bound by romance
You used your long fingernails on me
An egoist who wants to confirm love
I want to struggle on until I'm inside of you

You keep yourself at a distance
ah Before I lose myself

Is it okay to love, too?
In the shaking night
It's good as it is
More
Deeper
As those almost maddening lips I've gotten used to melt together
I am... your... vanilla

"...you're too affected"
You're cool like plastic
With hot looks like an ecologist,
those burning kisses are irritating

Your distorting face is
ah Please let me stay myself

Is it okay to love, too?
In the shaking night
It's good as it is
More
Faster
The almost painful wet lips are
there are no more words
You and I are not Burning love

ah If we welcome how many mornings
ah Will the nights probably stop
ah Scattered in the sky
ah White flowers surround us

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is "I've seen a tail"
It's almost embarrassing
I've fallen for you
A crew sees crying knees,
I wanna need. Not betray!!

Is it okay to love, too? In the shaking night
It's good as it is
More
You are
As those almost maddening hips I've gotten used to melt together
You are... my... keeper.

Just as a warning...
The translation is a little bit lenient...

The song itself is a bit worse for content :P

Really quite bored

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God I'm really bored...

Was planning on writing a manga, and had a whle story and everything
But I've searched high and low and can't find any plain paper...

I mean my house if full of the damn stuff usually!

So, now, I have given up on my idea.
Wouldn't be able to scan it in

Oh well...

Got a job application fro Tesco's this morning :-)
Not exactly my dream job... but at least it's money.

And they have no standards so I'm practically guaranteed to get a job!

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And a great big "lol" for yesterday

Poor, poor Arekusandaa-kun...

He did a live blog.
Which may or not have been completely taken over by sexual predators...

Who may or may not have been sent there by me...

x

I'm sure he'll forgive me one day.
Didn't help that one guy kept asking wether he wanted to be his "baby" XD.

Oh well, serves him right for asking me to watch him... what'd he expect?

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And I've made a good plan for next halloween!
Well... a mediocre plan.

Preparation, preparation, preparation.

Got to make sure my costume is made really early, like a month beforehand.
And I've got to actually make plans, instead of waiting for them to be made.

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Halloween/All Hallows Eve/Samhain

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From the minute that you walked right through the door
Thoughts were racing in my mind "time to explore".

Tunnel vision, I got you locked into my sight
On a mission for "position" by the end of the night

I'm a dime, and you're so on the money...

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So...

Got Miso for 80p at Tesco's XD
Though I checked that section already but I missed it.

Went to the fire station's "haunted house" thing tonight...
Is it weird that I thought one of the guys in costume was hot? XD

Well, it matters not.

x

What matters is that next Halloween is better than this one.
'Cause it was very boring to be blunt.

Not quite sure how I'll make it funner than this one... but I will.


Even if I have to resort to cross-dressing to get my "yaya".
Not that I usually get "yaya" from it, but it's gotta be good for a laugh XD.

I shall dress up as Sailor Venus and prance around the street!!!
Until I get beaten up and have to go home...

...

This is probably the first sign of transvestism isn't it?

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