Peace, out.

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Mood
Happy-ish
Listening to
Happy Birthday Song :3

x

Never thought the day'd come when I'd see
My reflection smiling right back at me
It's been a while since I've been happy
And I'm not even sure that I'm ready to be

But maybe I could
Maybe I should
Take a chance on you

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17. Yay

One year older than being just 16,
And one year away from the booze :P

I can hardly wait ;)

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So what am I up to today then?
Not much :/

Got older.

That's what it's all about though, right?

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Birthday resolutions?
Think I'm gonna make a couple...

• Get Emirii-chan's ass down to the gym! :P
• Get Kaa to try a blonde bob (muahahaha!)
• Jump on his face :3

And believe me, they'll be kept ;)

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Got the L Plush xD
And the Chrono Crusade DVDs...

And the entirety of Death Note and xxxHolic mangas :P

And;
The Girl Who Leapt Through Time DVD
Death Note Vol.1 DVD
3 Sets of Death Note Figurines :3
Funky new shoes (and socks too!!)
Some random PSP game :P
Penelope DVD xD
A couple of funky Momijis :D
Shampoo from Rinsii-chan xD
And a rock that looks like a poo-face...

Oh.
And monnies $)

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Definitelygonna have to arrange some meetings w/ people now I'm gone :P

So if you're reading this - don't think you're getting away either ;)

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So... Birthday today? Hell yeah!

xD

If we lived in Harry Potter land, this'd be my coming of age as a wizard :3
But we don't so I've still got 365 more days to go until my "coming of age"

"I wish I had a magic wand" <-- you know who you are :P

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Apparently,
17
Is the number that symbolises;
The Soul.

Hmmmm...

x

Well. On that note.
Peace, out.

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http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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Penultimate Blog

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Mood
Nostalgic
Listening to
Plastic Tree - GHOST

x

Admittedly, the last few blogs have been a bit... pathetic.

But
In my defense,

I'm a slacker :3

Still, this is my second last blog ever!!

OMG! Shock-horror much?
Naw, didn't think so :P

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So I've been accepted into college. Officialy.

A whole new world...
Level 2 Hairdressing :3

So free haircuts?
(Might as well get my practice somewhere)

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Yeah.

Still, once I've been doing it for a few months,
phone if you're ever interested in a quickie :L

...Haircut that is.

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So, bowling was fun...
Pissed at a lot of people though.

And I have every right to be in my opinion.

Not gonna bitch about it though,
if they don't feel guilty now, they never will.

Aint gonna be a nag :3

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Still. Thanks to the people who did come :P

Was definetly fun.
Even though Kaa didn't let me win.

I had the lowest score. On my own birthday!!
Humiliating xD

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So, new educational facility.

New opportunites? xD

Those in the know, know I'm gonna be shit soon :/
But at least there are reasons - however dumb - not to xD

And those really in the know,
Understand what the new opportunities are :P

(However fruitless they might be...)

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So... Birthday soon? Hell yeah!

:D

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So, I might start a new blog when college starts,
to document the transition and all of that crap :P

Who knows...

Still, one more blog and then, pop!
All gone ;)

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http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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Filler

This survey gets a little personal can you handle it?
Whatever :3

If you married the last person you texted, what would your name be?
Lloynds xD

Who is the last person you cooked for?
Mysewf

How many windows are open on your computer?
Err 12 tabs. 1 window.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I worked out I missed an appointment xD So not really!

When were you on the phone last? And with who?
xD I could hear him but he couln't hear me :P

Have you talked to a complete jerk today?
Naw

Want someone back in your life?
Nope :3

What are you excited for?
B'day :D

What were you doing yesterday?
Drama and then texting

Honestly, who was the last person to tell you that they love you?
Shein-kun :P

What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
:P ...sushi. For breakfast xD

Are you scared to fall in love?
Perrobably :3

Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
Oooohhh.... that's a toughy...

Is there something you want to tell someone?
Yepp :(

Is your current hair color your natural hair color?
Yeah, my hair's naturally dark red :P

What do you want right now, be honest?
L! ...or an L plush, whatever :P

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Buri? Or Kaa :/

Where is your cellphone?
In front of me

Is it easy to make you cry?
Dunno. I cried watching AI... so probably :P

Do you care too much/not at all/just enough?
Depends what mood I'm in

How fast does your mood change?
Very

I bet you miss somebody right now?
Yesss

Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Yessssss

Do you tell people you're ok when you're really not?
Doesn't everybody? :P

Have you ever worn the opposite sex' s clothing?
Err... a pair of jeans once. I borrowed them off a guy though... but they were girls! xD

When did you last talk to your number 1?
Yesterday

When is your next road trip?
Soon I think... hopefully :3

What school do you go to?
I'm a layabout!! xD

What year are you in?
Would've been 6th... but it's not! :3

What do you currently hear right now?
Silence.

Do you have an account on Youtube?
Nope

Are you wearing makeup?
Nope xD

True or false: take the pain out of love and then love won't exist?
True probably :/

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
Yep :3

What color is your toothbrush?
Red, but my auto- is white.

What were you doing​ 30 minut​es ago?
Waking up.

Why aren't you with the person you were once in love with?
Mental. 'Nuff said.

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Sumtimes :3

What is your ringtone?
Mein vibrates :P

What is your favourite TV show?
Dunno... Desperate Housewives... or Inbetweeners... or Big Bang Theory...

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yeah

What is going to be/was the highlight of this evening?
Bedtime :D

Have you ever made someone laugh when they were crying?
It's a talent :P

What year will you turn 16?
Er... June 20th 2008 xD

How about 18?
2010

21?
2013

What does your number 4 call you?
Robert. She had a nickname but we never use it anymore :3

How many months until your birthday?
0

Do you think you're a good friend?
Yepz - I think...

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose
Summer! :D

June 07, single or taken?
Gawd.... I think... I was... taken? Or about to be xD

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?
None

What was on your mind today?
"Shit! I missed my appointment!"

If you had twins to your first love what would their last name be?
Not gonna even comment...

Do you want kids?
Meh, all depends. Not too sure

Name them?
Dunno... like the name Sam for a boy or a girl... same with Lynsay actually :3

Whats the stupidest thing you have done in the last week?
Nothing really

Will you see the person you like this weekend?
Dunno. Doubt it :3

Ever taken a shower with somone?
Yes! xD

If you could kiss someone now who would it be?
Oooh... :3

Do you enjoy blogging?
Geee, let me think :/

This is the last question are you upset?
omg... no... (monotone tbh)

Kidding. Are you happy now?
yaaaaay... ( still monotone tbh)

Mobile Network?
3?

Do you like orange wednesdays?
Don't get them, I'm on three :P

B'day present ideas :3

L Plush
I'm a dork.
Deal with it.
And buy this plz!

Cool T-Shirt
Cause every guy needs something to wear...

Anything by Studio Ghibli (sold at Inverness HMV)
Except!! - Spirited away, Laputa, Howl's Flying Castle or Princess Mononoke

Push come to shove, Momiji
I've already got;
Kitty, Lolita, Sakura, Blu and Spike
And some girl with purple hair and green dress xD

Also note: Momiji merchandise is sold in Frame It.

Also, Also note: fill in the car thats hidden up their bum... xD

100 truths

[100 truth]

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage : Muffin :3
2. Last phone call: Kaa
3. Last text message: Mikeira
4. Last song you listened to: Utada Hikaru - Apples & Cinnamon
5. Last time you cried: Recent-ish..

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice: Sort of..
7. Been cheated on: Yep!
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yep!!
9. Lost someone special: Yeah :(
10. Been depressed: Yeah :(
11. Been drunk and threw up: Yesh..

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. RED!
13. blue..
14. black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: Yeah
16. Fallen out of love: Yes!
17. Laughed until you cried: :D
18. Met someone who changed you: Sort of
19. Found out who your true friends were: Kinda
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yep
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: On bebo.. yesh
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All of them xD
23. How many kids do you want?: No plans
24. Do you have any pets: Kitty cat :3
25. Do you want to change your name: Yepoo!
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Oh... that was fun... :/
27. What time did you wake up today: 10am
28. What were you doing at midnight: Playing my psp in bed xD
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: College letter
30. Last time you saw your Mother: 2 whole hours ago! Result! :P
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Stuff
32. What are you listening to right now : "Tea's a drink not a food" - "Not if you do it right" :P
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yesh
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Msn noises
35. Most visited webpage: Beboo
36. Whats your real name: Ryo ;)
37. Nicknames: Robert :P
39. Zodiac sign: Gemini
40. Male or female?: Male
41. Primary School?: Miller
42. Secondary School?: THS
43. High school/college/university?: Nobody knows the future
44. Hair colour: Red
45. Long or short: Short-ish
46. Height: Nooo idea :3
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yep :'(
48: What do you like about yourself?: Nothing good about me xD
49. Piercings: Ears, Eyebrow, etc
51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Broken leg? or arm...
53. First piercing: Ear
54. First best friend : Gawd... Dani-kun maybe? :S
55. First sport you joined: Football xD Didn't work out :P
56. First vacation: Abroad, Turkey
58. First pair of trainers: Nooo idea

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: Half-eaten Muffin
60. Drinking: Finished
61. I'm about to: Chat in MSN
62. Listening to: X-Japan - Standing Sex
63. Waiting on: My future love xD

YOUR FUTURE
64. What kids?: Dunno, brats probably :P
65. Get Married?: Dunno
66. Career?: Faymoos!

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes: Lips
68. Hugs or kisses: Kisses... ironically
69. Shorter or taller: Taller
70. Older or Younger: Older
71. Romantic or spontaneous: Spontaneous
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Ohh... toughy... I like tummies! :3
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship!!
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Hesitant I guess...

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: Yes
77. Drank hard liquor: Yes (is straight vodka liquor?)
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yesh xD
79. Sex on first date: Nooooooooo!!!
80. Broken someone's heart: Doubt it :3
82. Been arrested: Not completely...
83. Turned someone down: Yes actually! xD
84. Cried when someone died: Yes :(
85. Fallen for a friend?: Yes...

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: Sometimes :/
87. Miracles: Used to
88. Love at first sight: For me anyway, Yes!
89. Heaven: Sort of..
90. Santa Claus: Yep. I'e satted on his lap 13 times :3
91. Kiss on the first date: Yes, I guess
92. Angels: Dunno. Some guys can be pretty close 0:)

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: No
95. Did you sing today?: Yesh. A terrible rendition of standing sex. One miunute ago :P
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: Isn't that 94? Either way, noop.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: The first day I saw him. I guess
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: 19th June 2008
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? : Yes. If I'm honest
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes

この幸福の関係無し

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Mood
Confused? or clear...
Listening to
Songs that speak my feelings

x

Baby the harder you work the further you get with me.
Turn up prepared to make sure that you can keep up with me.

I tend to get what I'm wanting, are you starting to see?
It's time for you to step up if you're wanting to get with me.

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Don't
Go slow.

That is not the way I play
Slow just aint my kind of game

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Ready, set... go?

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Guess it's up to you
How far
We take this...

Yes, it's up to you;
so take the lead.

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Ready

Set

!

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http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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私はダンサーである

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Mood
God only knows
Listening to
Freemasons ft. Sophie Ellis Bextor - Heartbreak

x

Sometimes all you want to do is dance.
Move like you've been set ablaze.

Forget the world, and just dance the night away.

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Move to the music.
Let all your worries drift away...

Dancing can be like dreaming with your feet...

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I love dance.
I love music.

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"The truest expression of a people is in its dance and in its music.
Bodies never lie."
~Agnes de Mille

"To dance is to be out of yourself.
Larger, more beautiful, more powerful."
~Agnes De Mille

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We're fools whether we dance or not,
so we might as well dance.

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問題

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Mood
Confused
Listening to
Miyavi - What a wonderful world

x

This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back.

You take the blue pill;
the story ends,
you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.

You take the red pill;
you stay in Wonderland and find out how deep the rabbit-hole goes.

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We all have denial,
whether it's small or large.

We all have things we won't admit, or won't accept.

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We all tend to kid ourselves.

Just won't admit;
we're wrong,
they're right,
it's not okay,
it won't be okay.

We even kid ourselves that our enemies are our friends.

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Illusions
That's all they are really.

Lies that we convince ourselves are truths,
even though we know in our hearts they're not.

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And if one day,
you choose to accept the obvious?
And you accept things for what they really are?

"Welcome to the real world."

But sometimes,
disillusionment isn't all it's cracked up to be...

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愛

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Mood
Emphatic
Listening to
?

x

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love."

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So, what is love?

Is love the key that opens the gate to your heart?
Or is love the thing that makes your heart leave it's hiding place?

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"To love is to receive a glimpse of heaven."

It has no awareness.
No awareness of merit, or demerit.
There is no scale with which you can masure it.

Love loves;
It's in its nature.

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Maybe,
Love is like a friendship set on fire?

Or like a war: Easy to start, hard to end.

"To love is to suffer."
"To avoid suffering one must not love.
But then one suffers from not loving."

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So.
Is this love?

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ロバート

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Mood
Happy-Sad
Listening to
X Japan - Forever Love

x

So yeah, feels like I'm losing everything I've ever known...

But at the same time, I'm starting to enjoy new sensatons already...

I guess you need to learn to move on When it comes to this, and other things. And just appreciate the wonderful thing you have :D

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Sooo...
Kinda upset I guess

Didn't get to take pictures with some of the people I wanted.
Not that he would've really appreciated my asking him xD

But there were tonnes of people I wished I could've had keepsakes of...

Emirii-chan
Other Emirii-chan xD
Horii-chan
Jeimuzu-kun
Jema-chan
Arekusandaa-kun
Jiin-chan
Aya-kun
Ruiizu-chan
Amanda-chan
Jeimuzu-kun (emo variety)
Arison-chan
Keito-chan, Debii-chan, Kaasutii-chan & Hezaa-chan
Both of the Eimi-chan
Hanna-chan
Ashurii-chan
Aresha-chan
Buretto-kun

And also Raii,
wish I could find that damn picture we took at skins!

Heck, I even wish I had a photo of Roddo-kun xD
Just for some damn proof that I actually knew cool people

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Still, I guess I've got stuff to be happy about :D
Like the obvious... xD

And the potential to make new friends.

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Still, I'm also kind of pissed.

I hate liars.
And I'm really hurt that someone I thought was a friend lied to me.

They might have been trying to spare my feelings I guess,
But I think I deserved to be told the truth and not an obvious lie...

Guess it just shows who your real friends are...

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But still.

All things considered I won't let that person bother me.
I'm in much too good a mood.

And I'm also too depressed to care
If that actually makes any sense xD

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さようなら

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Mood
Akward

Listening to
Mia Rose - Friends in love

x

Stop playing with my heart the way you're doing
You keep pushing me away, then you're pulling me right back in
Playing these games when you know I'm already falling

Stop speaking through the lines and say it bluntly
Tired of reading through your smiles to see the truth behind
This circle of two thats leaving me always hoping

Stop making me a fool to think you need me
Stayed true to your life through the ups and downs
Waiting for moments I'm scared might never happen

Cuz I can't stop thinking about the future
And if you cant start telling me your feelings
I'm gonna have to find someone that completes me

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Bleh.
Stay away, stay away, stay away.

I hate it when I fancy people I can't have (-_-')
Especially when they make you think you can...

Even if they don't do it on purpose.

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Bleh!

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So only one more day of proper school left.
Not sure how I feel about it to be honest...

I'm rly gonna miss a lot of people so much,
And I know lots of ppl won't keep contact...

I'm gonna miss people who won't miss me;
That's a given.

People who probably don't even think about me at all.
People who like me, but only "sort of", or "maybe"...

Hopefully I'll meet people quickly.

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Guys can be mindfucks.
It's completely official tbh...

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行く

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Mood

Mocking
Listening to
hide - In Motion

x

Apparently I'm being a bitch to "someone"right now
But all things considered I don't really give a f*ck...

I've had lots of bad news this week
And if you're gonna shoot your mouth off, expect it back.

Off course I probably was a bit too rough.
I completely forgot that some of us haven't grown up.

Naughty words can make some people cry.

My bad.

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Also, on the topic of bitches...

Apparently I'm a "sexy bitch"
Lol at that XD (I can certainly live with it...)

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Only a little while till I'm gone.
And I'll never get to sign any yearbooks :(

So here are some signatures of my own :D

Kaa
Colleges are like old-age homes, 'cept that more people die in colleges.

Mikeira
When your on the ladder of succes, dont let the boys look up your dress!

Ribekka
Don't free a camel of his hump; you may free him from being a camel

Faan
Nothing will improve your memory of me more than trying to forget.

Buri (Hepzhi :P)
I hope that your life is just like a kitty-cats litter box, full of suprises :)

Sera
As kids, a library card took us to exotic places. Now, a credit card does it.

Yuan
Many men owe success to their 1st wife, and their 2nd wife to that success

Emiri
Drugs may be the road to nowhere, but at least they're the scenic route.

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So I'm sort of recording again.
About bloody time you might say =3

Not quite sure what I'm heading for though...

Might record 4 songs for an EP,
Not sure what to do about instrumentals though...

That's gonna be a whole different problem.

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Shinobi Life might take a while...
I can't remember where my penstick is xD

I wrote 3 chapters.
And I'll be damned if I write 'em again!

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平和の残り

Hideto Matsumoto (松本 秀人, Matsumoto Hideto, December 13, 1964–May 2, 1998), was a popular Japanese musician. More commonly known by his stage name hide (pronounced /hi.de/, given in all-lowercase letters by the artist), he was primarily known for his work as lead guitarist of the popular heavy metal band X Japan from 1987 to 1997. He was also a successful solo artist and co-founder of the United States based band Zilch.

Early Years ( 1964- 1984)

Hideto Matsumoto was born in St Joseph's Hospital, Midorigaoka, Yokosuka, on December 13, 1964. He entered kindergarten in 1968, studying English for three years, followed by an enrollment in Yokosuka Tokiwa Junior High School. He was first exposed to rock and roll music at the age of fifteen, through the album Alive! by Kiss. In the same year his grandmother bought him his first electric guitar, a Gibson Les Paul Deluxe.

hide joined X Japan (then called X) in 1987. He became the band's lead guitarist and occasional songwriter, composing songs like "Celebration", "Joker" and the single "Scars". Shortly after the release of the album Art of Life, the members of X Japan took a break, to start solo projects. Around that time, the group also dropped most of its original visual kei aesthetics, the exception being Matsumoto, who would still perform in wildly colorful outfits and with his trademark pink hair.

Death ( 2th May, 1998 )

Hideto Matsumoto died on May 2, 1998. After a night out drinking, he was found hanged with a towel tied to a doorknob in his Tokyo apartment. Three fans died in copycat suicides, of the 50,000 people who attended his funeral in Tsukiji Hongan-ji, nearly 60 were hospitalized and about 200 received medical treatment in first aid tents. Later that month, the single "Pink Spider" was released, entering the Oricon charts at number one. The song would also receive that year's MTV Video Music Award in the category "Japan Viewers Choice". Sales were also strong for the follow up single "Ever Free", while those of a single released previous to his death "Rocket Dive" would also see a substantial increase. American Journalist Neil Strauss commented on the trend saying that: "In just a few weeks, pop culture in Japan had gone from mourning Hide's death to consuming it."

While authorities deemed Matsumoto's death a suicide, several of hide's friends and colleagues stated that they believed it to be an accident, among them X Japan co-founder Yoshiki Hayashi and former X Japan bassist Taiji Sawada. This notion is supported by the fact that no suicide note was left and Sawada theorizes in his autobiography, that at the night of his death, hide may have been practicing a technique to relieve upper back and neck pains which guitarists can suffer from continuous use of a shoulder strap. The technique involved was practiced by the X Japan members during their touring days and required the use of a towel and a door knob or handle. According to Sawada, Matsumoto may have fallen asleep in his intoxicated state, becoming caught and strangling himself.

の生命

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Mood
Enthused
Listening to
An Cafe - Maplegunman

x

Feeling quite a bit better today.

Decided to write;
Great Action Scene! Magical Princess' Book of Ninja Arts - Part 2
And I've also decided to make it a 3 parter instead of a 2 parter...

Not putting it up till May though,
Decided Shinobi Life will only get 2 updates a month :P

But, for those who actually read it... here's a little preview...

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A drowsy Mikeira finally regained consiousness. Her vision was blurred, and as she looked at her surrounded she couldn't make much out.
"You're awake I take it?" The woman sneered.
"Who are you?"
"My, my," she laughed. "You would have thought a princess like yourself would have some manners..."
Mikeira frowned. Surely her captor wasn't stupid enough to think she really was a princess? Did this woman really kidnap her because she thought she was Princess Mou? She shook her head - there had to be a better explanation than that... surely.

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Suppose if all else fails I can be an author :L
Of crappy pulp-fiction books/novels

Still, it'd make a living I suppose.

A rather poor living.
Of uncertainty...

Maybe not.

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Either way, I guess this blog is mainly just about Shinobi Life lol.
So... If you don't read it... either start, or stopping reading this post xD

So yeah, have decided that for the first(last?) "Arc"
I'll do about 20 chapters (2 per month till December)

Every chapter is going to slowly start becoming more and more
part of a bigger picture - and each one is related to a rather loose
story arc which will reach conclusion in - obviously - chapter 20.

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There are already some hints as to the conclusion - starting in chapter 4.
Nothing solid, but soon you might be able to notice reccuring elements.

So, if you notice anything, feel free to let me know.
I might even tell you if you're on to something :P

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端

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Mood
Nostalgic
Listening to
An Cafe - Merrymaking

x

End of an era.
Kind of depressing to be honest...

4 years of drama, officialy come to an end.

One of my only real passions.
And the last time I'm ever likely to be on stage again...

It's actually really depressing.

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Still, my monotonous life as a hairdresser seems well on its way.
What fun...

I guess I should be a bit more enthusiastic,
I just wish things had happened differently...

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Still, I guess I'm only 16,
Got my whole life ahead of me.

It's just my youth that's over...

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Haven't blogged in ages actually.

I promised myself I was gonna be a bit more commited,
but I think I've done pretty well all things considered.

Think I might stop at 100.

Nobody really cares what I think anyway XD

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My drama exam went quite well though,
so I'm definetly quite happy with that...

Still really depressing that it'll be my last acting piece though.

After all, the chances of making it are slim.
And I'm far too fat to be a model XD

http://life-of-ryo.blogspot.com/
http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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体重が増えること

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Mood
Sad
Listening to
X Japan - Standing Sex

x

OMG!!!
Not fair!!!

:'(

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Just started reading this manga, Off*Beat
(It's ace btw, go read)
And it turns out, the 3rd, and last, volume is on "indefinite hiatus"!!

I can't fucking believe it!
Tokyopop are all crudbuckets...

...Tokyopop = publishers

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Also sad,
Absolute Boyfriend's ending :(

Haven't cried so much since...
Since I heard off*beat was on hiatus!!!

:P

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So... yay :)
Lots of stuff going on this week.

Not sure when I'll fit in my art project though...
(slightly getting worried now...)

Got someone on Tues,
No1 on Wed,
The "ladies" on Thur
Kylie Minogue on Fri
and Kaa on Sat

Lots and lots of fun.
Me and Kaa are gonna watch Pokemon on DVD

Cause I said so.

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Beginning to notice my diet is self-destructing.
And I'm getting fat, fat, fat :P

Sushi for all my main meals... (too little)
And then 3 chocolate bars, per snack (way too much)


Probably need to take a long hard look at my diet.
And myself.
In the mirror.

'Cause I'm getting fat, fat, fat :P

http://life-of-ryo.blogspot.com/
http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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任意

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Mood
Tired
Listening to
Alice Nine - The Beautiful Name

x

Bleh, Drama's getting on my nerves.
Especially a certain, particularly annoying teacher.

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私は日付にあつじゅを誘う方法を考えようとしています。<--still

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Had to re-do my nab for drama,
hopefully I did better this time.

Completely negleted the use of quotes my last time,
But this time I think I got quite a few good ones in it.

Still, I'm getting rather annoyed that all her plays were for women.

Really tempted to complain...
(there are rules she hasn't been following I can complain about.)

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Really need to get some stretchers.

And a nape piercing...

:'(

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More Quotes
Mrs Imrie - Romeo was an emo, Juliet wouldn't shag 'im

Caitlin - Who's Sam Ronson?
Me - She's Lindsay Lohan's Lesbian Lover
Caitlin - Woah, Alliteration!

Liam - Miss, what's a wedge?
Mrs. Imrie - It's erm.. when the man has a big...
Me to Rebecca - No wonder he doesn't know what it means.

Holly - Turn around Robert... I know, that's what he said.

Me - I digivolve into... your mum! You don't :P

Me - It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy... but not in a dirty way...

http://life-of-ryo.blogspot.com/
http://forever-chasing-lights.blogspot.com/

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非常に陽気な幸せ

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Mood
Happy-ish
Listening to
BoA - Sweet Impact

x

I'm not going through the motions
Waiting an' hoping you to call me
I'm not missing you

You might have had me open
But now I must be closing 'cause
I'm not missing you

I know I'm usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
But now I know I can be strong
I'll forget you before long 'cause
I'm not missing you

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私は日付にあつじゅを誘う方法を考えようとしています。

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So drama was rather... boring the other day.
But at least we got everything done I suppose...

But it's taking up so much time,
I don't have much left to revise :(

And therefore what little time I do have I have to revise in,
which means that over the hols I'm going to be missing TV

I mean, I spent 7.30-10.30 doing Bio last night.

It was utter madness. :'(

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Speaking of utter madness,
I'm home alone today! :D

Think I'm gonna go set fire to stuff!

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Lol, feel kinda sorry for the fit guy at the chinese...

Poor bugger xD

I didn't wanna look @ him, incase it looked like I was a pervert
But I didn't wanna not look at him, incase he thought I was rude

So the whole time that he was trying to take my order and serve me,
my head was spinning and turning in quite a distracting manner :L

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愛はうそである

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Mood
Slightly Pissed
Listening to
Utada Hikaru - This is the One

x

L is for Love
L is for Lies

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1. If you could spend one pound in 5 minutes, what would you spend on ?
Sweets =3

2. What is your most favourite thing to do ?
Sing!

3. If you are given a chance to reverse your life,will you back to the past ?
NO! lol

4. What would u do if u were to die tomorrow ?
Do things I like doing

5. Is there someone in your heart right now ?
Yeah of course :P

6. Do you feel loved in this world ?
Dunno

7. What are you afraid to lose the most ?
Hope

8. What do you feel like doing right now ?
Eat eat eat :D

9. If there’s someone that you love, would you confess to him/her ?
There is, and if I thought he'd be oky I would

10. List 5 things that u like in a guy/girl.
Nice voice
Really cares 4 me
Looks after me
Non-smoker
Not 2 good looking

11. What are the requirements that you not wish from your other half?
Don't be a prick :P or wear yellow :P

12. What do you think is your purpose in life?
Find my love :D

13. Do you feel like killing someone at the moment?
Nope. I'm kind xD

14. If you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Sex! (yes, I realise what I'm saying :P)

15. If you had a choice to be rich or happy, which one would you pick?
Not rich, happy

16. If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Plain to Sexy :D

17. What is the most prized possession that you wish you can bring to Heaven?
Kaa :P She'll get buried with me xD

18. Name one love song that you have in mind and why?
Simple and Clean - my first "song"

19. What is the one thing you love about yourself?
Flexible? dunno...

20. Do u ever regret together with your ex-boyfriend before??
YES, SO REGRET!

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I really don't enjoy drawing any more,
And I think I know why tbh.

Sad as it sounds, I think that subconsciously,
I don't want to draw cause everyone's better than me.

Especially Horii-chan ¬_¬

And it's probably my own fault for not practising...
But it's like, I used to be the drawer...
And now, I don't even know why I'm bothering.

But it sort of feels like lately I've been falling back
on pretty much everything that made me before.

All the stuff that
Identified
And now, I don't seem to be that person.

I'm not an artist...
I'm not a performer...
I'm not a writer...

And I'm definitely not "the virgin" any more...

And I suppose I should put it all down to time,
but it feels like these aren't because of time...

It feels like these changes are because I'm changing...

If y'know what I mean :S

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Soo....
Officially leaving high school now...

Really dreading it actually,
feels like everything's gonna change.

I mean,
I'll still be living in Thurso.
I'll be right next to THS.
Probably still go to the chinese for lunch :P

But I won't see my friends every day,
and I'm not sure they'll all miss me :(

Obviously some will.
(Kaa doesn't have a choice. I'll make her miss me :P)

But I can't help but thing some people won't even notice.
People who mean a lot to me, that I don't really affect...

And I guess it feels weird,
that I can just be pulled right out of my social circle,
and not even leave much of a mark after I'm gone...

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College ftw I guess...

Least I might get a chance to meet クラッシュ
So that's a silver lining, maybe...

Even though there's no definite chance I'll ever

see him,
talk to him,
make him like me,

etc, etc, etc - the list goes on and on...

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